I'm going to start playing music again. Well, it's not that I've stopped doing it, but I've been doing it so very sporadically during the last few years. I think it's been partially because of job stress, that I'm tired and restless after work and find it hard to make myself do something productive music-wise, but also because I've set such high standards on myself and that makes it hard to find inspiration, because it's like I think I have to have so much time in order to see any point with practicing. I've been practicing some concertina but not much more.
This weekend we were invited to friends of ours. We haven't known each other for so long, E showed up at our Irish music session some year ago, a brilliant but very nice and humble singer from Holland, but who lives in Sweden since many (I think) years. She has a husband who is learning to play some instruments and they have a nice place to live with a huge garden. We invited them to our house for Easter, for dinner and music session, and now it was their turn to invite us. After a fantastic dinner we started playing and singing. I haven't played anything at all for a long time but I had brought the mandolin and the guitar.
I play the mandolin very rarely these days. I can't explain why, I seem to not enjoy it, but I think it's mostly because I expect myself to be so brilliant, and just find that I think my playing sucks. But, when I do pick it up, and especially if I do it without planning to play, or without having any particular expectations, then my playing really goes well, I kind of get into "the flow".
Both Daniel and E expressed that my playing sounded so good, and why don't I play more mandolin??
That really made me feel good, inspired, encouraged to play. And today we discussed trying to learn some common songs and tunes, and do some arrangements for the sessions. That kind of thing also encourages me to play, I kind of need goals, and specific things to focus on. Now I've promised Daniel to learn six Irish tunes and six American tunes well on the mandolin, and then record them. I'll have this as a project during the Autumn. I really hope I can get back to my previous playing form... and the enjoyment I used to have back then.
I'll never give up the concertina but the mandolin is very dear to me, it was the first instrument I learned to play properly and also the one and only that I feel that I CAN play well, although I sometimes think I suck at it (it's usually when I compare myself with others).
So I guess... to be continued, and it will be an interesting autumn music-wise.